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Here's To Not Feeling Worse

by Longfriend Timefriend

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1.
Bad Friend 04:04
Cause I'm not the kind of friend you like Ask for a handshake and say psych Look man, I don't wanna fight But could you get me out of jail tonight? I will skip out on you Make fun of the things you do I will judge you, too You won't have a clue You won't get no space Not when I'm in your place Your status I will debase Your house I will deface Cause I'm not the kind of friend you like Ask for a handshake and say psych Look man, I don't wanna fight But could you get me out of jail tonight? I know I can't be trusted Not when I've been busted You better pick up the phone Or else you'll spend your days alone When I get hungry I get real mean I'll lose your money In some fucked up ponzi scheme When I get hungry I get real mean I'll make you want to scream Cause I'm not the kind of friend you like Ask for a handshake and say psych Look man, I don't wanna fight But could you get me out of jail tonight?
2.
You can hear if you listen The crackle of potential A few dozen sparks Please don’t look down or away It’s too much to take A familiar break in my heart I cannot shake the conviction A perfect reflection Your catalyst glow Maybe more like a reaction Nonpolar attraction A strong and steady undertow I don’t understand why You reached out to me Seems we’re stuck on standby Dancing dutifully Around the stuff that still lingers And sits in the air Extending fingers to grasp it But is it really there We can feel if we try to Each thing that they lied to You and me about Blessed if ever there’s blessings No more second-guessing No more insecurity and doubt And even if it’s not true I wanna do this with you We've got a half-century And if it’s less, then we’ll see Choke on the air we can’t breathe And go out peacefully I don’t understand why You reached out to me Seems we’re stuck on standby Dancing dutifully Around the stuff that still lingers And sits in the air Extending fingers to grasp it But is it really there
3.
Not making bad choices Not making any choice at all Not hearing any voices No whispers or caterwauls If you could see what’s on my lens You too would be myopic If you were stuck here in my head You’d be an alcoholic I’ve got a cat-like reflex I’m sleeping eighty hours a week Wondering where the time went And why no one’s feeding me If you could see what’s on my lens You too would be myopic If you were stuck here in my head You’d be an alcoholic
4.
The static between channels The noise between stations Each month for the annals Fucked up familiar places Is there anything that isn’t chronic? Carcinogen liners All flame retardant Lead pipes for the water Catch fire at the faucet Is there anything that isn’t chronic? The time we’ve spent in chaos Is old enough to drink A snowball’s chance we’ll ever process Without time to stop and think Pricks crashing the market Cowards starting a war Catch a deadly virus Can’t hardly breathe anymore Is there anything that isn’t chronic? The time we’ve spent in chaos Is old enough to drink A snowball’s chance we’ll ever process We don't have time to stop and think The time we’ve got remaining A little tricky to predict So I hold fast to those who love me The only meaning there is
5.
Helicopters are flyin’ over my head I kinda think that it's all in my mind All this talk of who I should be now When all I want is to try to be kind I know what the world wants me to be but It's kinda fuzzy when I'm trying to see I know what the world wants me to be but It's kinda hard when I'm trying to believe Everyone wants a saint of something A saint of nothing is all that you'll find All this greed, greed and corruption We'll steal it from ‘em, I'm sure they won't mind I know what the world wants me to be but It's kinda fuzzy when I'm trying to see I know what the world wants me to be but It's kinda hard when I'm trying to believe I know what the world wants me to be but It's kinda fuzzy when I'm trying to see I know what the world wants me to be but It's kinda hard when I'm trying to believe It's kinda fuzzy when I'm trying to see it It's kinda fuzzy when I'm trying to see it It's kinda fuzzy when I'm trying to see it It's kinda fuzzy when I'm trying to see it
6.
Denver 02:34
Allie we only meet Maybe once every couple weeks Allie I only see you Randomly when it's easy Now that you're calling from the Rockies Loving it so much that you could stay I'm kind of scared, it's kind of lonely To think you'd move so far away Maybe you'll never go You might end up here in Philly Really I think I know That doesn't seem like you to me Now that you're calling from the Rockies Loving it so much that you could stay I'm kind of scared, it's kind of lonely To think you'd move so far away If you pack your paints and brushes Leave just me one finished canvas If you take your stuff out west Let me drive the overnights Now that you're calling from the Rockies Loving it so much that you could stay I'm kind of scared, it's kind of lonely To think you'd move so far away (If you pack your paints and brushes Leave me just one finished canvas If you take your stuff out west) Let me drive the overnights
7.
Close Friend 04:39
An update for a close friend Which I guess I am again After so much space and time Says “that’s my boyfriend” and it’s sweet I’m hit with pangs of longing Was hoping you’d be mine But it’s a thing I get to see Because you put me on the list Granted me permission And that feels nice, and I believe That I would truly rather be Like this than without you again You need some space again, it’s fine At least you told me this time That you’re not permanently leaving But I am shaking and I’m sick Waiting for bad news to hit That you’re not feeling what I’m feeling So I take trips through older texts Collect some shrapnel from the past And start comparing then and now Oh what a ringing in my ears A growing existential fear The echoes of explosive sounds By now I’m really spinning out Filled up with overwhelming doubt That we could ever get there That you would want to show me off To have folks know there is an “us” To let them see how much you care So now it starts to make some sense I tease out details in my head Of why I didn’t wanna go When it got late the other night When you had your hand in mine I think I knew, I think I know That given space and time between That night and next we meet You’ll change your mind somehow again You’ll come to think it wasn’t true That, after processing it, you Don’t wanna ruin our friendship We shouldn’t be lovers instead Don’t wanna ruin our friendship We shouldn’t be lovers instead
8.
I sometimes think of what you may be up to You're 32—do your parents still control you? And what was it like, the years after the coma? I'd love to talk to you and see how much you've grown up And I wonder if you still think of me If I'd be any help to them Is this the way it's meant to be? This machine maintains itself I know that you cherished the time we spent in college It meant a lot to me, and that I can acknowledge A misfire that'll live forever I'd like to think that we'd be better together And I wonder if you still think of me If I'd be any help to them Is this the way it's meant to be? This machine maintains itself And I wonder Do you still think of me? And I wonder Should I just let it be? And I wonder Does this make sense to you? And I wonder And I wonder if you still think of me If I'd be any help to them Is this the way it's meant to be? This machine maintains itself (I wonder if you still think of me,if I'd be any help I wonder I wonder if you still think of me, if I'd be any help This machine maintains itself)
9.
Brave Steps 01:04
I thought of myself as floating above it Striving only to ride the waves as they came in I wonder as often as I think about it Why I felt no control over my role, predestined Where along the way Was I taught my autonomy was simply fictional Brave steps that you take to reclaim yours I’ll take them too, await the day I think of it now as a retrospective A different kind of film, not one choice elective I rewind the tape, it won’t play the same way Affecting the frames, what I did, what did I say Where along the way Was I taught my autonomy was simply fictional Brave steps that you take to reclaim yours I’ll take them too, await the day
10.
Axis 02:46
We will not freeze in the winter We will not lose to the sun We will stay strong ‘til it’s over We will not come undone The doldrums of our tilted axis Time spent in the dark and apart But we have each other for the first time Since the first time that we broke each other’s hearts We will not drown if we dive in We have both learned how to swim We will not live to regret it Just all the times we didn’t The long days full of possibility The warm water calling our new names We’ve only fear itself to be afraid of And I’m done letting that shit get in my way The doldrums of our tilted axis Time spent in the dark and apart But we have each other for the first time Since the first time that we broke each other’s hearts
11.
Meriden 03:11
Three months & 14 days later I must say I expected much more from myself Than a panic attack in a Mcdonald's bathroom Lost somewhere in the wastes of Connecticut. The only thing I remember from last semester Was the promise of progress that I made to myself But that Lake Street positivity went out with summer’s creativity I put my hands in my pockets Made my way toward the exit And tell everyone I’m alright But I think that they’ve found a way To be more sick of my shit than I am all the time We stopped off at the park, it was closed after dark But we said “fuck the cops” and rolled in. White-bread America’s sleeping but keeping the Christmas lights on. We’ll take what we can get and salvage from the wreck And we’ll try to stay honest in spite of ourselves We’ll say fuck last semester, we’ll make this one better And when it starts to suck we’ll at least have each other And I thank my friends for being better to me than I am to myself And I thank my friends for being better to me than I am to myself And I thank my friends for being better to me than I am to myself And I thank my friends for being better to me than I am to myself (I thank my friends for being better) (We stopped off at the park, it was closed after dark, but we said fuck the cops and rolled in) And I thank my friends for being better to me than I am to myself

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released March 15, 2024

Longfriend Timefriend is:
Caleb Delp on guitar and vocals
Louie Fantini on bass and vocals
Em McMahon on guitar and vocals
Pete Imbesi on drums

Backing vocals on tracks 2 and 5 provided by Sam McMahon

Produced, engineered, and mixed by Kyle Pulley at Headroom Studios
Mastered by Carl Saff
Album art by Christian Debuque (@ghostbongo)

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Caleb: guitar
Em: guitar
Pete:drums
Louie: bass

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